No Bra :P

The DM came in the other day and was fucking stuff up and pissing people off.  I don't get why when the higher ups come in to change things they can't fix things that actually need fixed.  Instead they come in and rag on people unnecessarily.

The shake guy got really upset, made him put the strawberries in the freezer, which made them impossible to mix into the shakes.  Then he told a manager to tell me that I couldn't wear the bra I was wearing.  He couldn't even tell me himself.

Apparently my blue sports bra can be seen through our white uniform shirts so I have to wear a nude or white colored bra to work now.  Which I don't have.  I asked the manager if they were paying for a new bra for me?  Bras are expensive.  Of course the answer was no.  So fuck it. I don't usually wear a bra except at work anyways, so I just won't wear a bra to work either.  Then no one will be able to see my bra!

My second to last table tonight was a sweet elderly couple.  I got to make a real connection with them. I talked with them for a little while about their grandkids and future possibilities.  It was nice and something that I don't get to do a lot at this restaurant.  My last restaurant that was part of the job, almost, to sit and talk with our guests.  That's what I love about serving!


However, I don't think I want to make serving my life career.  After talking with the couple and listening to their story about their granddaughter, and every time I talk to a guest, it makes me feel like I'm in a transition period of life.  Most people who start here it's their first job, or their going to school, or it's a second job.

I would love to be a full time mom at some point, but I don't have a child, and I don't know that I want to raise a child on a server's wage.  Maybe I could land a job at a daycare?  I do have a degree in psychology after all.  Though I feel like I would get burnt out on that after a few years.  Though I could use that to transition into a position helping those with special needs. Even that I could see myself getting burnt out on though.

My husband runs his own business, he's a photographer.  It would be nice to work more with him and maybe just be business partners, but I feel like that wouldn't be very financially stable.  If for some reason, god forbid, the business went under, we would both be out of a job.  I would love to be artistic though, I've wanted to be an artist for as long as I can remember.

I just don't know where I want to go from here.  I don't know what the best choice is...